I don’t have enough time... there I said it. I have been shooting myself in the foot with that statement for about 3 years now. The reality is that I have just as much time as anybody else. Yep, 24 hours of it per day. That is quite a generous allotment of minutes; minutes just waiting to be put to use. I am thinking about time because in the next month I will have a lot of free time suddenly at my disposal. I have been tending my little grand-daughter for nearly 3 years and now she is moving out of state with her mama. With her birth I went from being a full time artist to full time ‘Nama’. It’s been an absolute joy to take care of my Lily Rain, and although I have had to juggle my art around her, it’s been worth every minute spent. However, having had the luxury of painting full time and then having to share that time with the kidlet was when I started saying “I don’t have enough time” (bang, bang, ouch, ouch – just shot myself in the foot.)
Austin Kleon said that people would often ask him, “How do you find the time?” He would answer, “I look for it." He went on to say that you might have to miss an episode of your favorite TV show, you might have to miss an hour of sleep, but you can find the time if you look for it.
I have to agree. Rather than saying “I don’t have enough time,” I should have just said to myself something like the old Jell-O Gelatin commercial used to say... “There’s always room for Jell-O."
Oh, don’t get me wrong, I still painted during these past few years, but if I hadn’t saddled myself with “I don’t have enough time” and said instead “There’s always room for art” I think I would have been more at peace with myself about accomplishing the things I wanted to do. Truth is, now that I think about it, I realize that I really don’t have any regrets as my precious Lily Rain season draws to an end. I will miss seeing her chubby little cheeks daily much more than the time I would have spent on art.
And with that realization I will make an effort to cherish time as I begin to draw another season (quite literally).
Catherine Darling Hostetter is an artist, mother of 5 and grandmother of 3. She lives in Salt Lake City, Utah.